You probably know by now that I’m getting ready for my next online crochet course and I have to confess that I feel like I’m walking across a highwire.
It feels scary. I feel like I shouldn’t be here and I’m terrified I may not make it to the other side.
This isn’t like me……to write something so personal I mean.
I usually take great care to avoid the personal online. No family photos, no information about where I went last night, what I ate for dinner, how I’m feeling, or what’s on my mind. (but thank you for asking Facebook)
So this is unusual.
Don’t be alarmed – I’m not going to start gushing my feelings out in blog posts but if you’ve made the effort to click here I feel like you might be vaguely interested to know how this is relevant to my work, and potentially the creative work that we have in common.
Generally when we consume other peoples creative work we’re experiencing the end product. The outcome. The finished result. We don’t see the struggle, the hours spent getting it wrong. We don’t see the reject pile. Why would we want to see those things?
Those things don’t change the way we experience the end product.
The process in most scenarios is irrelevant.
But as crafters we’re different …..for many of us process is everything. We’re driven by curiosity and the enjoyment of bringing something new into the world and we’re interested in other people’s approach to the creative process which is why this blog post doesn’t feel like oversharing or overdosing on introspection.
I’ve always suffered with imposter syndrome and feelings of discomfort wherever I am and what ever I’m doing and the way I see it is this; when you feel not quite good enough, not quite measuring up, and teetering on the brink of failure you have 3 basic options:
1) Give up
2) Man up
Being a generally good natured but particularly stubborn Cancerian (is it still OK to identify oneself by your star sign?) failure is not a concept I’m prepared to accept without a gloves off confrontation.
I can do a particularly good impression of a rabbit in headlights but mostly I’d prefer not to end up as road kill on route to my next destination, so that leaves the second option: Man Up and embrace the discomfort.
I wasn’t born a crochet designer. I didn’t arrive in the world knowing how to do this stuff. I chose to do it and to do it as well as I possibly can. It is possible to craft your own identity and it’s very easy to do.
If you want to be a designer. Design stuff.
If you want to be a writer. Write something. And often.
Don’t wait for someone to give you permission and don’t wait until you feel in the mood because the chances are you’ll never be in the right mood. Fake it ‘til you make it may be an annoying and banal cliché, but the plain truth is – it works!
Gloria, my current crochet garment WIP, has been on my mind for a very long time but I’ve been avoiding looking at her because she’s not easy to work with.
( I have no idea when I started anthropomorphising my work)
But that’s the point – it’s not easy. Right now I’m struggling to see the end. I don’t know the answer. It might not work. It might bomb.
And all of those things are exactly the reasons WHY I feel compelled to do this.
I’m not driven by external market forces, I’m not interested in what’s ‘on-trend’ this season. There’s plenty of stuff out there to satisfy everyone’s needs. I’m not in competition with anyone because I know this isn’t for everyone. This means I can focus on challenging myself.
When I stop worrying about what people will think about my work and how people will receive it I’m free to do my best work and step out onto the high wire. Yes I may fall, and you may fall with me, but when we engage with uncertainty it’s new and exciting and it releases dopamine into our blood stream – which is why it’s so much fun!
In the tech industry it’s the Innovators and Early Adopters who are the risk takers and thought leaders – followed by the Early and Late Majority, with the Laggards trailing behind. The Majority and the Laggards have the advantage of knowing the answers up front but the Innovators and Early Adopters, also known as the ‘lighthouse customers’, don’t want to wait for the answer – they want to help write it.
The lighthouse customers are the pioneers, willing to test the waters and report back. Their feedback is priceless and they play a significant role in the potential future of a product.
I’ve learnt to trust myself and I’m lucky to know enough people who are also prepared to trust in me and who have already committed to this project. I’m currently working with a fabulous group of ‘Gloria Pioneers’ In Real Life and their results are already looking beautiful. They’re eagle eyed, kind and supportive – but hold me to account and encourage me to do my best work.
I’m also thrilled that I now have a viable online audience for this course. Thank you so much to all the early adopters who have committed to stepping out onto that high wire with me- we’ll make it to the other side together and when we get there we’ll know the answer – and then we can tell the Majority. Together.
So if this sounds like you – or somebody you know:
• You enjoy the thrill of a creative leap of faith
• You’re prepared to take risks and enjoy new creative challenges
• You don’t need to see the destination to enjoy the journey
• You know the only way to succeed is to take that first step
• You’re ready to take that step……
Nip over here and book your place before the end of December to take advantage of the Special Price before it goes up in January!
Or – if you know someone who you think would love this opportunity – you can also GIFT A FRIEND this course.
Oh – and the Laggards? Well, like I said……it’s not for everyone. 😊