“Those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.” – Friedrich Nietzsche
Back in December 2021 I was preparing to launch GLORIA- my latest online crochet course.
I knew I wasn’t ready.
I’m never ready.
I always hit the ground running and want to dance before the music starts.
This is what I wrote in a blog post when I’d just started this journey:
“Right now I’m struggling to see the end. I don’t know the answer. It might not work. It might bomb.”
This is not a sensible way to live. It’s reckless and foolhardy and it’s an invitation for hindsight to roll its eyes at me, wagging a well manicured finger and scolding “I told you so”
For several months now I’ve been dancing on a knife edge holding the hands of those who dared to dance with me; always just one step ahead and always afraid I’d stumble and fall.
Somehow, precariously, I stayed on my feet – dancing exhausted in my red shoes until I understood how it would end.
With hindsight I can look back at my first sketches and compare them to the finished garment- and miraculously – it worked!!
It’s not perfect…..I know that. But if I’d waited for perfection I’d still be paralysed by fear and Gloria would be stuck on a loop in my imagination.
The first online Gloria course may be over – but it’s not the end of this dance.
I have some tweaking, refining and perfecting to do but I feel like I’ve at least reached an interval and can take a breath before the next step.
I’ll always step out before I’m ready. I’ll press the buzzer before I know the answer and I know that makes me vulnerable and I’m forever in danger of failing uproariously in front of an audience. But I’m just not a belt and braces kind of girl.
The next time I run Gloria I’ll know the routine and I’ll have the wisdom of hindsight.
I’ll also be adding an extra size and a poncho version which I’m very excited about!
Right now though I need to attend to several loose ends and hold the hands of those that are still dancing……
Here’s a small collection of some of the beautiful work produced so far by the amazing Gloria ‘online pioneers’ and I look forward to sharing more Glorias with you in the near future.
If you’d like to join me next time bookings will open in August for a limited time – so get yourself on the waitlist and I’ll see you when we start again in October 2022.
Ayşe (top) and Donna
Hilary (top) and ‘Herbie’
Sue (top) and Chris